Are We Ready Yet?

I'm just going to come right out and say this.  No use in trying to rip this band-aid off slowly.  So here goes.

I could be PREGGERS! Again.

Yes, you read right!  Crazy isn't it?  Well, for me and the Mr it is.  I paid good money to have this Mirena inserted in my cervix.  And to think that after only 2.5 years this sucker has stopped working, makes me want to demand a refund.

Ok, I might be getting a little ahead of myself because I haven't actually taken a pregnancy test, but I just have this feeling that I probably already know there's a 60% chance the test is going to be positive.  Let me start the beginning.  Two weeks ago, I started craving all my favorite foods-sesame chicken, Twizzlers, Slim Jims, chicken wings, etc.  Now, I love to eat.  So, there are times when I'm in the mood to eat a certain dish.

But I've been legitimately craving these foods like around the clock.  And I didn't think anything of it because I thought it was just from stress.  I'm a stress eater by nature.  And I have been a little stressed about this whole search for a bigger place.

 Sunday night I sent the Mr out for a salad. It was almost midnight and all I could think about was a grilled chicken salad with buttermilk ranch and a little chopped egg.  So, I got the salad and immediately the salad dressing tasted off.  That was strange because the salad and dressing are made fresh.  I knew it wasn't spoiled, but I changed it out for some ranch we had in the fridge.  Y'all that salad tasted like a million bucks.  And when I'm pregnant certain foods always taste so much better to me even though they're very simple like salad and fried chicken.

Monday morning rolls around and I wake up with the worst feeling of nausea and a slight headache.  My first thought was "Oh no, the salad was spoiled and I have food poison again!"  But Moo had some of the lettuce and chicken before I put on the dressing and the Mr had some of the dressing and the bacon.  Neither of them were feeling the least bit sick.  I ate a piece of toast just to be on the safe side.

The Mr headed off to work and I started to notice that my nausea wasn't getting better, but worst.  On top of that my lunch felt like it was backed up in my esophagus.  Not a good feeling at all. Monday night I made spaghetti.  Y'all that spaghetti tasted off (to me) too.  That's when it hit me that I might be preggers.  However, I didn't want to rush to conclusions and decided I'd see how I felt today.

Well, today is here and I feel slightly preggers. The nausea is worst, food is still stuck in esophagus, my head still hurts on and off faintly, I'm dead tired and I feel like I want to vomit.  It's all the symptoms of pre- morning sickness that I came to know and tolerate in my pregnancies with Moo and JJ.  I thought I could wait this week out before taking a pregnancy test but the Mr noticed this morning that I looked a little off.  

And as of an hour ago, I finally texted him at work that I wasn't feeling so hot.  Of course, his response was that he thinks I'm pregnant too.  So, this time tomorrow I will have peed on a stick and will know for sure.  The biggest question running through my mind is are we ready yet?  We'd planned on waiting until late 2014 or early 2015 before trying for our third baby.  

In fact, that's why I got the Mirena.  It would be a birth control I wouldn't have to think about and that I couldn't screw up by missing a dose.  I don't want to feel sad or negative about this because I had felt this way throughout my first pregnancy thanks to people raining on my parade and in the beginning of my pregnancy with JJ.  If there is in fact a little one growing inside of this tummy of mine, I want to start this journey feeling positive about it.

So, ready or not I'm choosing to believe that if I am pregnant this is part of a bigger plan that God has for us.  Maybe, my uterus will be closed for business by 2015 and that's why this is happening now.  I don't know. But I do know that after I texted the Mr, he called to see how I was feeling about this possible new addition to our family coming sooner rather than later.  And I could hear a little glimmer of excitement, almost joy, in his voice.

As much as he's been back and forth on having a third child this year, ultimately I know he's going crazy wanting to have another baby boy.  I think the issue is that if we end up having a girl, he'll want to keep trying and trying until we get that next boy.  No worries though because since I'm the one doing all the hard work, I'll definitely be the one to put the foot down.  (5 kids is my absolute max!)  I have to admit just writing all this out right now is making me a little excited about the possibilities that may be to come in the next few months.  I don't want to get too excited because then I'll be let down tomorrow if the test comes back negative.

Life is unpredictable and for this moment, I'm choosing to roll the flow.  Be sure to stop by the blog tomorrow and see if we'll becoming a family of 5 or remaining a family of 4.  And btw if I'm NOT preggers, I'm going to be worried because I googled illnesses with pregnancy related symptoms and y'all I wish I hadn't.

Have you ever gotten pregnant while on birth control? How did you find out that you were?